Chydo Lawrence reveals how he almost committed suicide after he was disqualified for BBNaija 2018
On Friday, we got messages from a reader who revealed to us that Chydo Lawrence was about to take his life.. At first we thought it was a joke or a stunt, not until he sent us screenshots of chats he had with him, and also one Chydo had with his Girlfriend.
Apparently, Chydo was already among BBNaija Housemates set to begin later in January, but he was called upon and disqualified.
Below is the chat Chydo had with his close friend, Richard.
The chat with his girlfriend;
We immediately swung into action, and we quickly reached him…. and his message to us read;
“Went to the final screening today, and after everything. Some people were disqualified and I was told that I’d be amongst the fake housemates, I was like how. How can, who will replace us because since the final audition we’ve been 12 which is a complete selection. So who will now replace us. Why must I be a fake housemates, what do I stand to gain. What’s the need of going to the show. I was broken but I’m not surprised because this is Nigeria. Anything can happen and I’m very sure people have bought positions already because I don’t know where the replacements will come from. All was crossing my mind was suicide. I told that guy because he’s matured and I believed he can give out my location when I’m gone. I didn’t know he would start posting it. I wasn’t thinking right. I thought it was the end. I was like how do I face social media. So many things going through my head. I’m confused. I need advice”
We spoke to him, the little we could, and He has since addressed the issue on his Facebook wall.. Below is what he wrote;
“Good evening everyone. I’m heartbroken and I can’t keep it to myself ????????????, I felt like committing suicide, I was like how do I face social media but all thanks to Richard Gabriel Sorbari Juanita Itz Lisa Bella Beautyluv Akawu Oluwa D Shocker DeliverBrand Justine Chibuike for talking sense into my head.”
“Please I don’t want to hear sorry or pity, if only tears could turn back the hands of time then mine could have done it, but I’ve gotten over it and I’m strong. but I just had to write this down because I needed to explain things to all of you that got my back.”
“We were called for the final BBN screening which I was present, after much delay ,they were doing 6 persons per set and my set was 5 boys with a girl, we were later called in to the auditorium, we entered inside and thought maybe they wanted to ask questions or do health status check. But then a young man came out and told us that we don’t really have what Big brother want this year.”
“It was like a dream to me or maybe he was trying to tease us but at some point I became fearless enough to ask “what does Big brother really want” because I don’t understand what he meant by that statement. And the man said that we should pray to be amongst the fake housemates instead of asking questions, I was like “the real housemates get two head? Why must I be on the fake side ???????? but the next response was from the security who led us to the exit. Seriously I fell down and almost cried, I thought about those who have intended supporting me, I thought about how the internet will react, I thought about criticism, all was crossing my mind was just to kill myself and end it all, but at some point I remember that I’m the 1st son and since I lost my dad I’ve been playing the dad role to my siblings and I’ve been playing the husband role to my mom, how will my junior ones survive In my absence, how will my mom cope, will she survive the shock? If not for me by her side when my dad kicked the bucket, she couldn’t have survived it, so if she mistakenly receive the news of my death I’m sure she will slump ????????, at the same time I remember that failure is not the end, failure is just a bend to another straight road ???????? I remembered that I’ve got a future which is not determined by BBN I became courageous enough to accept my fate. No regrets because this is Nigeria. I wonder where our replacements will come from, did they audition at all? Or people who bribed their way in? God knows! It’s beyond my comprehension.”
“What a sad way to begin the year ????????I wanna thank y’all for your intended support. The only losers are those who don’t try. First attempt and I got to this stage, it will always get better. Thanks and God bless y’all. Every disappointment is either a lesson or a blessing. I believe it will end in praise. I love y’all ????????????. #Broken”